I’ve been in a little bit of a funk lately. I think it’s about time I try and sort through these thoughts of mine.
Wanting to feel wanted applies to many aspects of my life. Not just dating; although, the point of my post is about the dating aspect, I think.
I’m not a fan of my job; actually…I kind of hate it. But, it is what it is. I’m (hopefully) going to start grad school in the fall, so things will change soon! I don’t feel like I’m needed/wanted there. I don’t feel challenged. I feel that everything would be just fine if I wasn’t there.
With my friends, I just want to feel that they think about me when they hang out and want me to join them so they call me and invite me. Even if it is last minute. I just want to know that I crossed somebody’s mind.
Even in my dating life…I want to feel wanted. I was recently at one of my friends house and her boyfriend was there. Throughout the night, he referred to her as beautiful, pretty, sexy, and maybe a couple other words describing how good looking she is. I love that she’s with somebody like that. She deserves it. I’ve never had that though. I’ve never had a man I’m seeing say that to me. Is that weird? I think it is. It’s no wonder why I don’t ever feel sexy, nobody has ever made me feel attractive. I know I’m not super mega attractive but I know I’m not ugly.
Every now and again, I’ll get an occasional “you have such a gorgeous smile!” Yeah, I know. Thanks.
I want a guy to look at me and for me to feel he wants to rip off my clothes. Obviously not all of the time, but every now and again…at least. Is that for real? Or is that something that’s just in books I read or movies I watch?
Maybe I need to learn how to feel sexy before I expect somebody else to find me sexy. I don’t know how exactly I can do that. I’ll do some research.
thirty-somethings 
haters gon’ hate
by vivaciousdebSo I got what I’d like to call my first “haters comment” on my last post. This person basically dissected my entire post in bullet point format essentially saying I am drama, irrational and I deserve to be treated the way that I was. Obviously not in those exact words lol but that’s what I got from the comment. I didn’t approve the comment because I will not allow somebody to write that nonsense on my blog. Most of the people that read my blog do not know me well enough to make an assessment about me like he/she did (I’m totally assuming it was a guy though).
The entire comment was 884 words, yes…I had to copy and paste it into Word because I just had to know. That’s OVER one page, typed! First, this person cares way too much about what I’ve had to say and secondly…who the hell has THAT much time on their hands?
Saw this somewhere on Facebook late last night. I can’t remember where though. This had me legitimately laughing out loud.
Anyway…I knew some sort of hater was going to cross my path at some point. I mean, I am putting myself out for the public to read about. Does this make me an official blogger now? Maybe! I’m sure it’ll happen again. In which case, I’ll brush it under the rug again because to be quite honest…I don’t really give a shit!
Here’s a little snippet of what he/she said:
I didn’t even go into detail about what my male friend and I had a falling out over…so that’s just ridiculous lol. Also, I’m pretty sure I didn’t ask for special treatment.
I think some people just like to be not only critical of others but also put them down.
I love writing about my dating adventures because it puts things into perspective for me. There are so many awesome people that comment and give me their advice…I love it because it’s so helpful to hear somebody else’s perspective on whatever is going on in my life. To those people: thank you!
To anybody who feels the need to berate others, fuck off. I don’t need your negativity.
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